Thursday, September 22, 2005

WHEN YOU LET YOURSELF REMEMBER

WHEN YOU LET YOURSELF REMEMBER,
YOU KNOW WHY
YOU MADE THOSE ASSUMPTIONS
ABOUT THEM
THAT YOU DID
AND WROTE THEM OFF.

THEY ARE POISON FOR YOU.
LIKE THE SONG OF THE LORELEI--
THAT IF HARKENED TO
WILL LEAD YOU TO BE
TOSSED UPON THE ROCKS.

LEAVE THEM TO THEIR OWN DEVICES--
CONTINUE ON YOUR WAY,
NOT LOOKING BACK,
NOT DOUBTING
BECAUSE
YOU KNOW ...

SO LASH YOURSELF TIGHT
COVER YOUR EARS
AND SHUT YOUR EYES
MOVING THROUGH
THE TREACHEROUS WATERS
TO THE OTHER SIDE
FOR YOU HAVE TASKS TO ACCOMPLISH
AND PEOPLE TO LOVE
WHO NEED YOU
AND WHO LOVE YOU.

SO STEEL YOURSELF
AND TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF
BECAUSE YOU TRULY ARE A CHILD OF THE UNIVERSE
NO LESS THAN THE TREES AND THE STARS,
YOU HAVE A RIGHT TO BE HERE ...
AND A RIGHT TO BE LOVED
FOR EXACTLY WHO YOU ARE
FOR EXACTLY THE WAY YOU ARE,
NO LESS.

AND I LOVE YOU--
THAT IS ENOUGH.

I bought a book today

I bought a book today.  And I read a chapter to my husband tonight.  We were sitting in the car, in the garage.  Just sitting after coming home from listening to Chez Roue, an incredibly cool New Orleans style jazz band.  The kind with brass instruments, a bass, drums, and too cool keyboardists.  Add a hefty helping of a Sachmo voice, and you’ve got the recipe for a groovin’ band. … So, the book, right!  I opened the book to find the chapter I had thumbed through to today, but another, more interesting chapter came up.  It was Chapter …. And it read:







Then I leaned over and whispered in my love’s ears as I caressed his left cheek with my encircling right arm and hand, “I don’t think I have ever not enjoyed sex with you.  You’re SO lucky that I enjoy sex with you as much as I do, otherwise I’d have wandered long ago.”  “I hope that’s not all you’re sticking around for.”   “No ... it’s a really important part, but that’s not the only reason that keeps me here.”  “Put down that bottle of massage oil and let’s snuggle up and go to sleep.”  So I put down the bottle and maneuvered myself as close to him as I could and snuggled close and we went to sleep.  Well, almost.  Then I got this bright idea that I had to write about it.  So now, if you don’t mind my leaving, I think I’m going to go back to that snuggly place and rest up for the next tasty feast of sex with my man.

I said to him, "It must have broken her heart when you married me."  We had been listening to a tape she had made for him of a Chesapeake Bay-based band, "Hard Traveler."

Monday, September 19, 2005

GINGER AND CHOCOLATE AND EARL GREY TEA











MY BEAUTIFUL SOPHIA :-)

Saturday, September 17, 2005

I had to laugh at myself this morning ...

I had to laugh at myself this morning after I tossed the covers off my hot body--and I mean it was hot, literally. My skin was hot to the touch. My whole body was hot. I had slept well for the few hours that I did and woke to the sensation that I was hot so I tossed the covers off. I needed a good full-body stretch and as I did, I looked down at myself. And it was a gorgeous sight as I watched my muscles contract and my torso elongate as I raised my hands above my head and stretched from the top of my outspread fingers to the tips of my toes pointed down. No wonder my lover likes to gaze at me. I see him looking. "Does it please you?" I say as I move towards him and lean insistently on his shoulders and chest so he no choice but to hinge back onto the covers as I press my lips against his with wanton and passionate kisses.

And then it starts--the rush of hot sensations beginning in my groin and low in my uterus, moving upward to my stomach and breasts and finally to my chest and face until my whole upper body is flush with a hot, lusty need to fuck. To have his arms wrapped around me and his mouth all over my body. To hold his swollen cock in my hands and feel every ridge and vein with my fingers and then with my tongue. To have his bulging head between my lips and press deep down the back of my throat, greedily feeling it with my tongue ...

Oh, right! Back to laughing at myself this morning! After my glorious stretch and wakening to the day, I wandered into the bathroom and saw myself in the mirror! Yikes! LOL!! I had rooster hair!! I went to bed with my hair wet from lying back and floating in the hot tub last night! It looks like a rooster's comb! LOL! Nothing a good, hot shower won't fix!

Love ya! Have a great day :-)

P.S. The picture doesn't quite capture my hair when I first got up!!! It has settled down quite a bit in the meantime--LOL!
P.P.S. And speaking of pictures .... All but one of the pictures on my erotica blog are pictures I have taken. And I will try to continue with that.

Friday, September 16, 2005

What a wonderful day it will be today. And what a great night it was last night ... all because of the sauteed calamari in olive oil, lemon juice, and finely choppped garlic. Yum! It was delicious! We sopped it up with our hearty bread rolls. Such a sensuous experience: pulling pieces of the roll off and dipping it, and my fingers, into the garlic and olive oil/lemon mixture, feeling the slipperiness of the oil on my fingers then licking any traces of it off as I put it in my mouth and going back for another. Now THAT was yummy! I will definitely be going back to that restaurant again--Bacchus. I like the party God :-)

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Somehow I knew that no matter how long the caulk sat beside the shower unit and no matter how long the shower had gone unused in order to thoroughly dry out, I would be the one to strip the old caulk and recaulk the steam shower unit. And so, I have begun. It will be a multistep process because ... that's the way I want to do it. So I stripped--my clothes and the old caulk. So much easier to work in confined spaces without the impediment of clothing, especially since it's still warm and perfectly good weather to be nude. Maybe in a couple of months I won't be so quick to discard them.

Bingo! Found it! The cause of the very slow and very minor water leak on the outside of the unit. The only evidence of any water escaping the confinement of the acrylic unit was a small rust-colored "tide" mark on the drywall just beyond the unit. Now I feel much better about having undertaken the project myself. Most people wouldn't have found the source of the problem and the whole job would have needed to be redone. One thing I know about water: even if it's a small problem, don't ignore it or it will cause you big headaches. I know this not from my own experience, but from others'. I'll let the area dry out a bit more, maybe spray a bit of bleach to kill any mold, then recaulk it. I am happy!

Sitting here at my keyboard, I feel the cyclical action of the fan blow across my skin and wish I were naked. My housekeeper has come for a few hours so I am not at liberty to stay naked. The other day, I closed the curtains, went outside and lounged in the chair on the back deck under the sun, naked. I saw the curtains rustle at one point after she arrived but I never heard from her ... maybe she saw me, maybe she didn't--I'm happy she left me alone.

And so I think ... about far away places ... about far away people ... friends, family, lovers ... and I am grateful.

Monday, September 12, 2005

What to write? So many thoughts chattering away. Think I'll go sit on the deck and say goodnight to the sun whose company I have enjoyed today.

Sunday, September 11, 2005

SACRED PLACES, SACRED SPACES

Sacred Places, God's Gifts
Gods' Gifts, Sacred Spaces

Don't trivialize your sexuality.
Don't discount it.
Honor it
Savor it
Relish it
A Gift from The Gods.

Honor the sacred sexuality of yourself.
Honor the sacred sexuality of us all.

I SLEPT NAKED


I slept naked between soft sheets last night...and every night except when it's too cold. I love the way my skin feels as it moves across the Egyptian cotton...so soft, so sensuous. I love moving my body across on the sheets to get better contact with them. When it's time to sleep, I roll over and lie on my stomach, my body slightly to one side, with my head on the pillow, facing to the side. I straighten out my bottom leg and position the other leg so it is bent at the knee at about a 90 degree angle. I place one hand under the pillow to cradle my head and nestle the other, spread out, my palm against the skin of my soft underbelly, sometimes moving it low to cradle myself. I drift off...to sweet, sensuous thoughts of....making love...and of Eros and Aphrodite, lovers entwined. Sweet dreams...Aphrodite. And to you, Sweet Eros.

Water and Sunsets


I love the experience of water as I move to step out of the hot tub: a combination of swirling, gurgling, dripping sounds... And how it feels as it slides down my body and runs off my skin. Such a sensuous experience to be in the water...and then to get out of it.

And I am reminded, again, how grateful I am for the gift of my senses. 'Taki 'ahsin, Creator.

Friday, September 09, 2005


I am new to blogging. So you will see changes and improvements as I learn how to navigate the process. This is, in fact, a test of what my postings will look like.

Even though I have never blogged before, I DO KNOW I WANT TO WRITE. I want to write about erotica...the erotic things that happen in my life...to me and perhaps to my friends. I will change the names and places to protect their privacy but what you read is real. Unless I say I am fantasizing, the words in this blog are real. No bullshit. No lies. Maybe some literary license for a better read, but the truth about my sexuality and the spiritual experiences I have while being intimately reminded that not only am I a spiritual being, I am animal too. I may make some references to Jungian psychology and myth. They only add to what I trust will be as stimulating for you to read as it is for me to write.

Be good to others. And to yourself.

Mitakuye Oyasin (in Lakota Sioux=All My Relations and said with different pronunciations)

Ho!

The utility of Oxo chip clips


What an absolutely glorious afternoon I had this afternoon. After I finished writing some erotica (which ALWAYS gets me HOT), I went into my bedroom to make love to myself. Even though I closed the jewel-toned curtains imported from India and woven with gold thread, just enough sun shone through them to throw a soft light in the room. I was so eager to feel the flush of my orgasm that I took off only my workout shoes and socks and shorts. I still had my workout top on and loose fitting tank top on when I lay down on the taupe dupioni silk bedcover. At first I thought I would cover myself with a blanket to protect my precious juices from the drying breeze of the fan circulating overhead. But as my hand pressed against my clitoris and started working its magic, I realized I wanted to see myself: my body from the waist down and my hand getting lost in between the mound at the top of my legs. It was so much better: so much more stimulating to see my hand move up and down between my lips. I lifted my breasts out of my lycra top and they were held in place, pushed up by the elastic in the workout bra. I grabbed a couple of Oxo chip clips I keep in the draw beside the bed and positioned them so they were secure on my nipples. So now I had a nice view and some nipple stimulation. I got to work making myself come. I came fairly quickly because I had worked myself up with my erotic writings earlier.

It was a blissful come and I was about to settle in to come some more when I heard my husband coming down from his office upstairs. I didn't feel like interacting and hoped he would just pass by me and let me get back to the business of taking care of myself. I took off the nipple clamps and covered myself with the blanket. But when he walked into the room, he came over to where I was lying. He got on the bed and spread out next to me and kissed me. As he moved his hands under me, he felt the clips and said "I see you've been playing with yourself." He peeled my lycra top up over my shoulders and head and came back to kissing me. After long and passionate kisses, he took my nipples between his fingers and began to do to them what the clamps could only come close to doing...this was interactive. As I squirmed beneath his kissing and squeezing, I could feel myself getting hotter and wetter. I reached over and felt his hard cock bulging, waiting for the inevitable...that we would fuck. He lowered himself onto me and penetrated me...by this time I was writhing and moaning. Oh God it felt good. We continued making love, both enjoying it. I made him take his cock out of my pussy so I could put it in my mouth and suck my juices off it. I got hotter and wetter as I tasted myself on his cock and smelled and licked myself all over his shaft. I felt his head at the back of my mouth and let it slide a little deeper down my throat with each push. Even though it felt good, we decided to go back to plain old fucking. Still...something was missing. I NEEDED to come. I needed to feel that intensity...some anticipation that was lacking with the traditional positions. I asked him if he would fuck me in the ass. If he would take his bulging penis and slide it into the last remaining hole that had been neglected...until now. "So you want it in the ass? Slide up this way then." And he slid my hips up higher to get a better angle and as we faced each other, he placed his engorged head at my opening and pushed. Not too hard, not too soft. Just enough to penetrate the powerful muscle that is meant to keep a secure barrier between releasing its load prematurely and preventing unwanted intrusions. But this was a wanted intrusion...so I relaxed my sphincter a little and let him slide in. I could feel the pressure of his penis as it moved further up my anus. And as he went deeper inside, I could feel his shaft become more and more engorged. Oh, it felt sooo good. I couldn't stop myself from writhing up and down on his cock as he moved faster and faster in my ass. "I'm going to come in your ass. Do you want me to come in your ass?" Normally I would have said no but he had caught me at a weak moment: I would have said yes to anything right then. Once before he had come in my ass and I was pretty uncomfortable afterwards. But he had caught me at a time when all I wanted to do was say, "Yes. Come in me. Come in my ass..." I pressed my hand firmly against my clit and rubbed it...up and down until I could feel him become so engorged I knew he was about to come. I let go and allowed myself to feel it. All of it. All of the sensations: the sights, the sounds, the tastes, the smells, and the touch. The sensation of his engorged penis in my throbbing ass and my hand on my clit...and...I... came......ahhhhh.....ahhhhhhhh.......ahhhhhhh.......AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

And it was done. And it was good. But I wanted more, greedy lover that I am....so I told him to not move. "Don't take it out. Leave it in for just a little longer." And I made myself come again...and again...and again. I had hit the sweet spot where multiple orgasms flowed...like waves breaking on the shore...one after the other...without hesitation, without thinking...just coming.

I was sorry it had to end, but I had lost him...his mind had already began to wander elsewhere, taking his body with it...until the next time.